In high school, at any given time, you would have found me with a boy on my arm.
Sometimes two, sometimes more...but always, always with the boy joined at the hip.
No, I wasn't a floozy, or super popular, or hot...I was the token fag hag.
These 'boys' were my Gay Best Friends.
Sure, some of them were ex-boyfriends (They dressed impeccably! They smelled nice! They were sensitive!) who had tried to play it straight, but that, of course, wasn't destined to work out.
What did work out was our friendship.
We talked about boys (and girls), love, sex, music, wine coolers, hair product, life in general...we went to every school dance, spent the summers together, got into trouble together (or tried not to).
It made for a wonderful, fun-filled, fabulously memorable high school experience, and I wouldn't have wanted it any other way.
I embraced and was proud of my fag hag tag...I took it as a compliment.
I had other best friends, both male and female, and they were great friendships as well.
But, alas, my heart belonged to my boys.
I had other boyfriends back then, and they were pretty much forced to accept my love for my GBF's, and luckily they did.
I am happy to say that I am still in touch with "the boys", who have now grown into handsome and lovely men, and they are still a very important part of my adult life. Too many thousand miles separate me from them, and I would give anything to have one of them closer.
Adult friendships obviously aren't the same as the ones we had in high school (thank goodness), it's just not feasible with husbands and families...but over the years I have found myself longing for another Gay Best Friend.
There was something about those friendships that have left a little space in my heart that has been empty for a long time.
Those who know me well shouldn't be surprised or offended by this...I adore each and every one of of my friends, and am grateful for the many far and wide that I do have. I wouldn't trade one of them for anything, as they all have special places in my life and in my heart.
But if there are any GBFs ISO a former fabulous fag hag, I am your girl. Woman. Whatever. :)
